Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts

Friday, 23 August 2019

OH, THE PLACES YOU’LL GO!

OH, THE PLACES YOU’LL GO!
An Analysis





Dr. Seuss is known as a Children’s Book Author but this book speaks to all people. It represents everyone of us who dreams, stops dreaming, fails, dreams again, and wins. HE said that you are the one who will decide where to go --whatever we will become is based on our decisions today. We have the brains and we have the feet to propel us to move depending on our decisions. When we are in school, it seems that the world is easy and small but when we graduate, we realize how wide and big it is. Our dreams may start to sound impossible and we are thrown off-track, there are those who are better and luckier than us. Others might be soaring now while you are still there, figuring out what to do in life. With the advent of social media, we feel pressured and unsuccessful especially if we compare our status to those who are living their dreams. Our dreams might not materialize because we can experience hang-ups and bang-ups. What are these?

According to Merriam-Webster, hang-up is something that causes you to feel worried, afraid and embarrassesd, while bang-up is something that causes damage. Dreams are not easy to reach. For example, I dreamed to be a doctor but because of financial difficulty and time, that dream is unlikely to happen now. So, I changed my dream which is to be a teacher at the same time, traveler. Our childhood dreams might not come true because we have other obligations but along the journey, we shape other dreams because we are also changing as a person.

There are times when we cannot go on; hence, the waiting game. We are stuck in a plateau of helplessness -waiting for  the big break without lifting  a finger, waiting for a miracle, waiting for someone to lift us up. But Dr. Seuss is telling us that we are better than that. We have to escape this waiting area, we have to jump over this barricade because there are still games to be won. In short, do not give up on life!

There are also times when we are all alone and it will get lonely. Our darkest enemy will be ourselves. But it says here, go on and hike far. Climb the mountain. Step carefully and thoughtfully. He is telling us that when we are determined to move mountains then we should also mix it with the right values. Dreaming is useless if our values and principles are compromised. I like it when he said that Life’s a great balancing act. WE balance our time, priorities, people, money, among others. On a final note, keep in mind that you are great and you are off to your next adventure!






Monday, 3 December 2018

AVALANCHE



AVALANCHE

The good memories, the beautiful moments
Spinning ‘round and fast but slowed down when you held my hand
You ignited a fiber in me; I wanted to dispense my soul TO YOU.
You were all goofy and chatty yet your blue eyes seemed to cry.
Can I save or fix you? Will you let me make you smile?
I reached out to you.
There’s hope.
We made our home within you.

But then our home started shaking off
With your words “Move on, I’ll hurt you more.”
I crashed into the sea, drowning in waves of emptiness and agony.
I wanted to love you through your peace and anxiety
I wanted to stay through your pain and healing
I wanted to see and kiss your ugliest parts
I wanted to hold you tight even if it tears me inside
Because I believe there’s a beautiful universe living in your mind.

Like the Big Bang, our worlds collided twice
I missed the warmth of your skin, your hype singing
Piggyback rides, kisses under the moonlit sky
Your chest rising and falling, your head between mine
Hugs from behind, scooting closer to your arms
Tangle of white sheets, I listened to your heartbeat
I wished we could stay like that for a lifetime…
But in the stillness of the night, you still chose to leave.

You knew I love you but your broke me anyway
You knew I care for you but your fears washed them away
I knew you were struggling but I highly hoped it would past
I knew you loved me but your panic and anxiety dragged you back.
I never got tired and I hated you for giving up
Was I not enough?
Did you try hard to let go of what’s holding you back?
Did you honestly try hard FOR THE BOTH OF US?
  
 I wanted to hate you more but I cannot find any more reason to...
I can feel that you’re hurting more than I do.
I am sorry for asking you more of what you are afraid to give
I am sorry for everything I caused that made you feel at risk.
Our love is one great avalanche - -sudden, overwhelming
Dangerous, rapid, forceful, falling, descending
But know that it has been a beautiful sweep
Listen, you are loved and please, DO believe in it.

Baby, you don’t have to worry, I finally found the courage to set you free
Let us embrace our solitude; we’ll search for joy and tranquility separately.
You will grow in your own term and pace; your head will be out of the snow
I am filling-in my heart with self-love, the world is waiting and waving hello
True love never quits but it’s truer when you know how to stop
Though I left a flicker in my heart
In case you ever wanted to come back HOME
My Beautiful Avalanche.




Sunday, 31 December 2017

2017 Tidbits (Part 2)



July
• Visited Grand Mosque
• More interviews but too choosy
• Starting to Like CLP
• New friends in SFC        





August
• Almost done with CLP
• Friends with brothers in SFC
 




September
• One-day work as a shadow teacher
• Continued my book and created new blog
•Swam in Corniche
• Had my exit in Sharjah overnight stay
• Met Elisha
• Family Conference
• CLP Dedication Day
•Regretted not accepting a job in Chouiefat
• started part-time as tutor







October
One-day work in a recruitment agency                   
• Read How to Kill a Mockingbird
•Played Billiards to celebrate teacher’s day
• Celebrated my 26th bday
• Halloween Party at AL Umerat Park
• Nosebleed Examination and Demo in an Indian School
• Realized how fun it is to teach kids






November
• UTI
• depressed and unproductive
• had my second exit
• thought about going home
• cut bangs
• opened up about my problems in COW
• Surprise birthday party







December
• experienced being part-time worker in  UK
• less interviews
• offered job as a writer but I realized I still
Liked teaching
• part of SFC Creative Ministry
• visited Miracle Garden, Global Village, Burj AL Arab
• performer 50th CFC Anniversary
• completed simbang gabi
• Christmas party of B1
• Christmas party and camping of Cluster B
• Solo swimming in the beach
• Stressed about my pimples
• Christmas party with Paquiz Family
• Met this smart guy in an interview
• hopeful to get this TA job soon
 • first Christmas and NEw YEar abroad




Read the insights from my adventures on my second blogsite.